Well. Heres the deal people. I’ve got LOTS to update on. Camp Oasis, next surgery, my douche bag insurance and all that jazz. So instead of one giant post I’m going to make a few small ones however, I thought this was important. I am still really struggling with my weight. A lot. I’m having a hard time dealing with it. Accepting it. Fighting it. ….being me. However. Today, is the first time in a long time that I felt like I looked ok. I actually took my own picture. I have only allowed pictures on 2 occasions in the last year, once being a single picture at my niece’s birth and the other was Camp Oasis.
Even in those sets of pictures its a cruel reminder of my current status, my weight gain, and my over all constant reminder of my disease. Even if I am feeling good about myself I see a picture and it all goes away instantly.
Ok I lied. There was a third. I applied for my CPL (concealed pistol license) and for that they needed a picture. I had that picture taken around april. I just got the CPL in the mail…and wow. No wonder I didn’t allow pictures. Now mind you, I’m no where near my pre sickness weight, but I have lost almost 20 lbs from my heaviest.
So…here I am. Today.
Way to go on the 20 lbs lost so far!! That is a great achievement! 🙂
Losing 20 lbs is quite an achievement. You’ve a lot to be proud of, so keep yer chin up. 🙂
You’re hot!
And way to go on the 20 lbs, that’s quite the accomplishment!
You look great you soon to be pistol packin j-poucher! It only took like three months to get your CPL? Wow, that’s actaully quick for the metro area. It normall takes forever down state. My uncle-in-law, who lives in Wexford County (near Cadillac) applied for one on a friday and got a call three days later that he would be able to pick it up the next day. Pretty crazy, eh!
You look wonderful. You don’t have to be hard on yourself. You just have to be the best damn you, you can be. Take pride in lossing those 20lbs and the next 20 will be that much easier.
We are in your corner being your cheerleader, if you need me to dress up like a cheerleader in a skirt (soo not a pretty picture) and all I will do it.
Peace.
Stop it! You look beautiful. You have been through a lot, so give yourself some credit. Besides the fact that being women, we are NEVER happy with the way we look – sick or not! 🙂