(are you guys tired of typing out the whole URL? Should I splurge ($10) and buy the damn domain?)
So as the next surgery draws near, I find myself slowly freaking out. Quietly, but still freaking out. I have had 3 surgeries in my life, never been scared or nervous or anything before them until this one. The is the only one I have gone into feeling good. I feel really good. Still fat. But good. Its hard to go into this one all chipper when I know on the other side is a lot of crap…ugh..literally. I’m nervous for #2 ….ha. No seriously.
Anyway heres the other kicker. My MS has been in remission since ’07. HuRah! right? But during the last 2 surgeries I was on a boat load of steroids. Which allegedly* helps the MS too. So if this is the case, well I’m not on steroids anymore. Peasants rejoice. But without the steroids there is talk that another surgery could aggravate the MS. Peasants…don’t rejoice.
So the idea of waltzing in there awesome…and leaving relapsed and in pain and with an asshole loop-ileo (ha. literally) doesn’t exactly give me the warm fuzzies. Eh I’m really just bitching now, but more or less. I’m nervous when I’m usually
not. Its dumb.
P.s. Wanna know what I hate most about MS. The fucking glitter banners. I hate that crap…wrote about how much I hate them here.
* I find most MS therapies a load of capital B, Bullshit. Including steroid courses to help with replases.
Sorry I have nothing helpful to say. Having to think about surgery is stressful. So, just keep your eyes on the goal, or enter another cliche here. =/
If it’s any consolation, which it’s not, the surgery I had did not aggravate my MS. But yours is a hell of a lot more serious and invasive, so who knows. They put me on “preventative antibiotics” because allegedly getting sick causes relapses and we want to prevent that.
Really, what DOESN’T cause relapses? I swear every person I know with MS has a list of things their doctor says causes relapses. Add them all together, and we might as well all move into bubbles.
I hate steroids, but you already knew that. It would be really nice if they found some treatment that didn’t make us fat, crabby, and suffer shit like ulcers and bone loss.
Oh yeah, and the one thing I hate more than steroids is glittery banners. Thanks for sharing that one with us. Ass.
Oh yeah, I wouldn’t buy the domain unless you really want to. It’s in my history so all I have to do is type in “b” and the link appears. 🙂
I pretty much hate everything there is to hate about MS, but most of all. I hate, hate hate that I have it.